“Role Reversal” in Dementialand

Although I used the term “role reversal” in the title, I’ll be really clear in telling you I don’t like it. I hear people say things about how they’ve become a mother to their own mother, or something to that effect. And I get where they are coming from, but caregiving for an older adult is different from parenting.

First of all, most of us get about nine months to prepare for parenting. We have adequate time to prepare a room. Oh, and people throw us a shower. You even get to go to SuperTarget with a scanner and scan all the items that will be useful to you in your role as a parent. Then all your friends get together and wish you well on your parenting journey.

You might even get to play some games involving wrapping toilet paper around your stomach or melting candy bars in diapers to see if you figure out what candy bars they were. Oh, and there will be cake and punch. Maybe even those melt-in-your-mouth mints.

I’ve never seen anything like this for caregivers. You typically don’t know that in about nine months your mom is going to need a lot of help and you’re going to have to drop everything. No one gives you a due date for when you are going to start your caregiving responsibilities. If there’s a crisis and your dad is moving in, you don’t get time to paint the room baby blue and go shopping for new furniture.

Can you imaging the gifts you might register for before your caregiving shower? I was talking to a friend whose mom has Alzheimer’s and recently moved in with her. She said she’d register for wine. Lots of lots of wine.

Parenting is hard work. Don’t get me wrong here. I understand that parents, like caregivers, lack sleep. I understand that parents, like caregivers, are stressed and short on time. Parenting and caregiving both involve ridiculous amounts of multi-tasking. Both come with extreme highs and extreme lows, but I’d argue that we tend to be more supportive of parents than we are of those who caregive for older adults.

Furthermore, what I find is that “family-friendly” workplaces are more friendly to workers with small children than workers who have to leave in a rush because their mother with dementia is wandering in the road. Caregivers who balance work and caring for a family member may be cut much less slack than parents in the workplace. And often workplace policies are written with employees who have children in mind…without regard for employees who care for older adults. Apparently, that’s not family?

When I browse Facebook posts, I see stuff like from parents about their kids’ accomplishments, from potty training to spelling bees to high school sports achievements. Recently I saw a post from a mom about her son, who had just used the potty for the first time in exchange for a few M&Ms. It was complete with a photo. I’ll leave it at that. Can you imagine if those caring for an older adult made posts like this on Facebook? I’m not sure how many likes they might get.

Lots of my Facebook friends post about funny things their kids say. I see plenty of pictures of little girls who have gotten into mommy’s makeup and smeared lipstick all over their faces. A caregiver I know recently busted her mom heating up cans of Diet Coke in the microwave. Should she have taken a picture and posted it on Facebook?

I talked to a family caregiver who was caring for her aunt. Her aunt would wake up during the night and need to use the bathroom. Not wanting to disturb anyone, she would quietly tip-toe down the hallway. However, she was unsteady on her feet and would (on a good night) knock a bunch of pictures off a table trying to stabilize herself or (on a bad night) take a fall.

Her niece gave her a bell and insisted she ring the bell so someone could come help her to the bathroom. She would never ring the bell–until one night she did.

Her niece was pretty excited that she would now ring the bell, but when she tried to tell her friends and co-workers about this “breakthrough,” they didn’t celebrate with her. They just gave her a look of pity, and that wasn’t really what she was going for. Apparently, this isn’t the type of accomplishment that society celebrates like a kid winning a spelling bee.

Caregivers don’t get a peer group like parents. If you’re a parent, you have the parents of the children on your kids’ soccer team. Or the parents of the kids who are in the play with your daughter. You have a built-in network of people who might be sharing some of the same joys and challenges that you are. It’s harder to find that built-in network if you are taking care of family member who has cancer, dementia, or another serious illness. You have to make an effort to find those people who get it.

After Thanksgiving, holiday cards and letters begin rolling into our house. My husband and I (who are in our 30’s and don’t have kids) are swamped with cards from proud parents. And it’s a good thing. People should be proud of their kids.

But where does caregiving fit into your family Christmas card? How do you fit in that paragraph about how your mom with dementia moved in because she kept overdosing on her meds? Should you add something about how your grandma has no idea who you are but you feel like your connection with her brings you both a lot of joy? There seems to be no place in the family Christmas card for the negative or positive aspects of caregiving.

When you’ve got a new baby, you probably have no problem finding a babysitter. Let’s face it–people think babies are cute. Most people, especially women, like to hold them, try to get them to smile, listen to them babble. But asking someone to stay with your loved one who has Alzheimer’s so you and your husband can have a night out? That may not be as easy. We are comfortable with the idea that babies need 24.7 care. We are totally uncomfortable with the idea that some adults may need 24.7 care as well.

A couple of years ago I reported for jury duty. A woman in the jury pool explained to the judge that she was breastfeeding. She wasn’t sure exactly what she should do if she was chosen for a jury and had to stay the entire day. The judge was sympathetic, and he dismissed her.

Recently, someone asked me if I thought she could get out of jury duty because she cared for her 85-year-old mother who wasn’t able to be left home alone. She couldn’t find anyone to stay with her and didn’t think she should bring her to the courthouse. I honestly had no idea if that was an acceptable reason to be excused from jury duty. But I now know that breastfeeding is.

And let’s talk about our goals as parents. We tend to think we are good parents if we send our kids out into the world to be kind, successful, and happy adults. We watch them walk across stages at graduation, get married, get job offers…and we feel a sense of pride, like we’ve done something right.

How do we judge whether or not we’ve done a good job as a caregiver? When do we get to feel that sense of accomplishment? When do we enjoy those milestones where we get to pat ourselves on the back?

I’m not saying caregiving isn’t fulfilling. I’m not saying you don’t have joyous moments where you realize you’ve done something meaningful, valuable, and important by caring for your loved one. But the highs of being a caregiver are different than the highs of being a parent.

Parenting and caregiving are both adventures. I can’t deny that. But they are unique adventures. And the caregivers I know often struggle because they are caregiving within a society that is not set up to support caregiving. Saying we become parents to those adults we provide caregiving to ignores some of the distinct challenges faced by caregivers.

So caring for your mom who is in end-stage Alzheimer’s isn’t like taking care of a newborn baby. I’m gonna guess that no one threw you a shower and brought you gifts.

3 thoughts on ““Role Reversal” in Dementialand

  1. Thank you, Elaine, for this post. It resonates with the millions of us who are care partners for our elderly loved ones and often feel very isolated. For me, the monthly Memory Cafe in our area is a source of support and encouragement. There, we do not need to explain or apologize, and we know that we’ll be heard and not judged. I’ve shared your post on the Montpelier Memory Cafe website so that others can be aware of your very helpful blog.

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  2. I love the parallels. My mom actually commented to me that she and dad were my third and fourth kid. She recognIzed how much time and energy they required.

    Sadly we aren’t working toward a launch but trying to soften the steady decline.

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